normal

i ate too much candy and now i can't sleep.  i blame halloween.  (i only ate two "fun size" pieces of candy.  it's only "fun" if you eat the whole bag...).  anyway, the solution?  play on the computer and eat more candy.  i only have two pieces left....but that'll be good enough to keep me up until 8am.  baron is sleeping next to me on the couch.

i wish my brain had a usb port so i could transport all my files to the computer.  i just want to empty my head, get it on the computer, organize it, then maybe put it all back in.  that would make things so much easier.  like the pensieve.  oh, i wish i had one of those.  i could just pull silvery thoughts out of my head and put them in a jar, and go back and look at them later.  helpful.  dumbledore was smart.

when i was still in bed earlier trying to go to sleep i thought of a dream i had in high school.  i had this dream 12 years ago and it still haunts me.  i guess it bothers me so much because i have no idea what it means and i spent a lot of time trying to figure it out for about a year after i had the dream.  finally i gave up trying to understand it, but i still think about it often.  i'll tell you parts of the dream but no one needs to know all of it. 

after band practice one day i was sitting in the auditorium.  just sitting there.  there were a few people hanging around up on the stage.  (we were in the auditorium because we were preparing for a concert the next day).  suddenly someone came and sat behind me and we talked for a while.  this person told me, "danielle, i'm not as vague as geneva."  then suddenly i was back in the band hall and i wrote "why can't anything be normal?" on the chalk board.

it was a strange dream.  i can't figure out what this person meant when he said he's not as vague as geneva.  it was so weird.  it bothered me so much.  a few days after i had that dream i went into the band hall and wrote "why can't anything be normal?" on the board.  it was dorky, but we always wrote stupid things on the board.

anyway, so i was thinking about that earlier.  i don't know why.  i woke up in the first place because i had a dream that i was in japan and there was a really bad thunderstorm.  that was over two hours ago.  i spent two hours twisting and turning in bed trying to go back to sleep until i finally gave up.

i think baron is happy that i couldn't sleep and i came out here to play on the computer because he gets to come out here with me.  he loves sleeping on the couch.

it's official.

apparently i'm boring the world.

Clean, Shaven. and aliens.

i woke up because i thought i heard baron bark.  i sat in bed for a few minutes, listening.  when i finally got brave, i got up.  using my cell phone as a flash light, i walked out of the bedroom to get a drink of water, and mostly to make sure no one was in the house.  i don't have a clue what i would have done if someone had been in the house.  (you see, i'm not that smart.)
anyway, i got a drink of water, walked through the house, and went back to bed.  but i couldn't go back to sleep.  i started playing on the internet with my phone.  an hour and a half later i put the phone down and tried to go to sleep but i couldn't.  i looked toward the window and saw an orange light in the backyard.  i'd never seen an orange light out there before but i was afraid to go look out the window to see what it was.  i kept looking over at the window to make sure the light didn't move.  don't know what i would've done if it had moved.  and then i was reminded of this movie i watched one time when i was a kid.  it was about alien abductions. 
this woman saw flashing lights out of her window at night and went to look out the window to see what it was.  there was an ambulance and some men were out there.  one of the men looked up and saw her in the window.  they turned out to be aliens instead of men, and they abducted her.  she was returned to her house several months later.
i've always been excited about aliens and the x files and stuff, but honestly, it freaks me out.  ever since i saw that movie i've been afraid of being stolen by aliens.  right...as if the aliens could single me out from all the people on earth.  i'm not saying that i believe aliens exist.  it's hard to imagine that they're real, but also it's hard to think that in this whole universe, earth has the only living beings.
i looked out the window again, and of course the orange light hadn't moved.  i just wished i could figure out what it was without going to look out the window and be seen by the aliens.
and then i started thinking about a movie we watched just the other day.  Clean, Shaven.  it was weird and sad, but i liked it.
i finally fell asleep about 3 1/2 hours after i thought i heard the dog bark.